I want to learn sign language.

I want to learn sign language, just for that one time if i ever get to meet someone who is mute. Just so I can be able to communicate right away with him as if nothing makes him less capable for the general public to greet him and wish him a good day. Just to be able to say 'Isn't it a beautiful day out sir' or simply 'Good Morning' or even to compliment his attire. Just to be able to communicate with him like everyone else.
I truly do wish so. I want to learn sign language.

What do you Desire?

"If you say that money is the most important thing, you’ll spend your life completely wasting your time: You’ll be doing things you don’t like doing in order to go on living, that is, in order to go on doing things you don’t like doing — which is stupid!" Alan Watts

Missed me? :p

I haven't posted anything in a while, but I have indeed been writing 24/7.  I written many lyrics and poems that'll make no sense, a greater amount of pure 'rants' but I'll start edited them up and posting them isA :)
Until then I'd like to share this beautiful deep song with you, If you haven't already come upon it. This song somehow means so much to me, has taken a toll on my life, and is already dedicated to my future husband isA. <3
Women reading this: Prepare to cry
Men reading this: take your ego aside, unwrap the bundle of feelings you've stashed away and let this song touch your heart and melt into your soul. And then come and tell me how it felt to feel like John. Capish?

lol on a side note, ill try to make my posts short so I can actually post them and not get lazy about it! Enjoy :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=450p7goxZqg

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I have No Pictures to Show.

I repeatedly tried to take a picture of the sunset and it never came anywhere close to its mesmerizing beauty I saw with my own eyes. The lens did it no justice.

I realized that sometimes the most beautiful things can't be captured, like laughter, the feeling of butterflies in your stomach when you're on a high of happiness or that ease you get once your eyes meet with the eyes of one dear to you. So I put what was blocking me from seeing the beauty of the world back in my pocket and just stood there till the very tip of the sun finished sinking, put to bed and tucked by the horizon, leaving a soft cotton candy glow to illuminate the sky.

I had nowhere to be, No rush. Don't look at me funny I'm watching one of Gods beautiful creations, no shame. We see pictures of beautiful places around the world on some random Facebook page we probably liked called 'luxurious places' or 'best beaches' wishing we could go to that place because we know Its better to actually experience the atmosphere personally. Yet when we're there, we dare to take out our own phones and take a dozen of snapshots rather then actually letting the beauty of the place put us in the state of trance we wished to feel when we were once while looking at the picture online. Ironic.

Our generation should never forget for a second that there's a better life, an actual life outside our phones. If we do we could miss a breathtaking sunset, like what I just saw.

Stop and take a moment to admire all the beautiful things you take for granted every day. (:

Sidi Heniesh - August 12th 2013

Gets me every time...

This video keeps me in check of my goals for Masr isA. I dont know why but I literallly cry everytime I watch this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tsVdo_dSXgE

A Feminist Critique of Ms.Sara Bellum

I've made a discovery! Kinda...you know how now we realize all these subliminal messages in the old cartoons/ movies we used to watch as kids? Like how Shaggy from Scooby Dooby Doo is actually a huge pot head? lol Well heres a few things about Ms. Sara Bellum, it's completely right wing I admit but still interesting. And as always, tell me your thoughts :) ( ask.fm/askShourouk)

Ms. Sara Bellum

As a character in the Cartoon series ‘The Power Puff Girls’, Ms. Sara Bellum is the Mayor’s very competent, statuesque, and redhead right-hand assistant who often handles things the Mayor can’t, which is practically everything. The multi-stereotypical face is never revealed on screen, clearly producing a gaze that objectifies women as it shapes the minds of the youngsters to believe that you don’t need a ‘head’ in order to be successful.

Among eyes Ms. Bellum is a common predilection because of her sexy appearance. The hyper-feminist has an ‘Hour-Glass’ shaped body that the majority of men dream about. Simply constructed from a thin waist (the base); making its way up to large breasts or down to her round hips and toned butt, her body is considered as full. Characters in the cartoon often claim that she is very beautiful (Pro.  Utonium is always stunned and usually weakened in her presence) which makes sense because all her features are ‘long’ which is considered beautiful or attractive now, and apparently when the cartoon was being produced. She is a tall woman with long legs, hair, nails, and also a long neck which is said to be beautiful as is symbolizes a horse’s neck. Ms. Bellum with her perfect lady-like posture always struts herself in a pair of red (the color of seduction) heels, a short skin-tight skirt, a golden necklace, and a black belt to make her tight, slightly revealing business vest even tighter. Whenever in the center of attention an object has to cover her face or just her great deal of curly red hair does the job. But what impact does this have on the viewer and did it affect our society today? Yes, the girl eyes staring at screens know that since they are smart they will have a successful future but because of Ms. Bellum they now think that there success won’t come a long unless they have the exact appearance as Ms. Bellum, including the incorrect fact that what matters is what’s going on from the neck down. This applies to the society today as millions women who were never able to climb up to the standard of ‘Ms. Bellum’, end up feeling incomplete, unconfident, not good enough, or just the plain old unattractive loser who was never able to have the highlight of correcting a teacher while she glows emitting her beauty. She also indirectly teaches a type of seduction to kids in one episode through teaching ‘The Power Puff Girls’ to be nice the ‘Rowdyruff Boys (villains)’ (in other words, kiss them) instead of fighting to destroy them which ended up working. Furthermore, Ms. Bellum is also the reason why men only focus on women’s bodies because that’s exactly what she did. She taught the once young boys to only focus on what underneath the head because that is what is important.

At first Ms. Bellum is seen as a sex object, ironically until she speaks, even though her voice sounds insouciant. Matching her appearance Ms. Bellum’s tone is kept constant while her throaty, alluring, and quite unruffled voice displays her intellectual side. While it’s hard to believe that as she says stuff like ‘It’d be my pleasure…’ her “Do tell…’s” show the stereotype of a very successful woman were her only super power is her high intelligence. Unfortunately, this does criticize the patriarchal structure or the society because distinctly she is the brains of the Mayor operations, deserving his position. Yet she’s just an assistant to the dumb unproductive male just because being Mayor is defined as ‘a male job’ like being the president. In one episode she expresses an obsessive attachment to the Mayor after he died, proving that she is in love with him which easily connects to the society now as usually the assistant ends up falling for her Boss or vis versa.

The gaze of Ms. Bellum strongly objectifies women as it teaches youngsters to judge from the head down and that it is only possible to be ‘something’ high in life if you have ‘The Look’. Although, no-matter what your IQ is men remain inferior to women, and women have to stay trapped under their planned authority. Who knew a headless woman in a cartoon for kids could explain today’s society moreover; engrave such a huge impact in the world today, huh?

Hey stalkers! <3 lol

Okay so I found this on my camera and I dont know... I think its a cool shot.

Anyways... this was taken last week when my aunt and uncle visited us in chicago <3 It was the best time ever, we basically ate out every night at fancy restaurants (cha-ching!) (I forogt how our parents have to fight for the check to pay for them #EgyptianCulture101 you must always pay!), I got to sit in the business lounge with all the representatives of the Rotary districts around the world! o.o Only one person per district and yall know being a boss runs in the family so course my uncle was chosen to represent district 2450 again. All the people were super fancy too, even the hotel, it started raining lightly and they gave us all free fancy wooden umbrellas I wish I didnt had mines so I could take one low key haha :p

First things first, that day I spent 4 hours in Lord and Taylor with my aunt helping her pick out dresses for my cousins... like don't get me wrong, I absolutely love her, but over FOUR hours in just one shop? Whatsapping pictures to them back in Egypt, to see which ones they like? and me turning into a manikin? Dragging 40 dresses? no, just no.

And you probably think im joking about the 40 dress, hail nah I aint, she picked out any nice dress she saw, they were really heavy to, I stared doing curls haha ;D.  I only got cranky because she wouldnt eliminate some dresses and when we went to pay she disappeared to look at more dresses and I was holding her phone and stuff trying to whatsapp the cousins but then there wasnt internet connection, and it was all a big mess. Yea, she left, when we were at the casher! hahaha omg I literally was like 'excuse me shes not from here... and shes a shopaholic' lol . But the best part is when she talked to any American here because she's always joking around. She's just going up to employs speaking in arabic, totally serious, using like two English words in her sentences to play around. Wa kaman fe wesho7om bet ol 'inty habla wala eih? bayenlak habla?' and stuff like that hahaha.
Mini story: she was buying a really nice BCBG red dress I picked out for her and the cashier was Russian and CRAY, and of course my aunt is just mocking everything she says, anyways the women asks me if its for me all shocked because the size was huge for me... and my aunt goes 'Its mines ya habla' and she goes 'ohhh its for you ;)' Aunt ' yessss ;) shofty ba2aa, its for my boyfriend'
Cashier 'ohh red for your boyfriend ;) are you getting married then'

Aunt ' yes next week *bats her eyelashes like cray, by this time my brother and I were like dying of laughter*

Cashier: Ill put it in a special bag to keep it safe!
Like really, no bride in the world would ever buy a red cocktail dress for her wedding?! Habla fa3ln! lmao

That was a great day expect for the fact that I couldnt find a dress my size for prom, not even a ugly dress. In every store I went to, NADA... ._.
And that was like what, the forth time I spent a whole day on a hunt for the 'Perfect Prom Dress', and now theres nothing my size.
I hope you guy have a good ya hear? In the mean while I'll be crying in this corner till cause I'm dressless and Proms two weeks from now...